Day 25: Have you ever purged? If you have describe your first experience.
Way too many times, being bulimic and all. I spent years trying before I managed. I tired the whole fingers down your throat thing, but that simply didnt work for me. Then I found this tip about drinking salt solution, so desperate as I was, I tried it, and barfed like crazy. It was vile though, the sting in the throat was horrible, but I kept going like that for a while, then after doing that a few times purging came naturally by just pressing my belly and gagging. In the end, after doing that several times a day I didn’t even have to press, the food just automatically attempted to leave my body, which was a pain when I was forced into recovery and banned from the bathroom for a good2-3 hours after every meal. I couldn’t handle any sort of pressure on my stomach, or I’d just throw up. Now, when I don’t purge as often as I used to, it sorta needs the pressure again. But yeah purging is not as physically horrible now as it was with the salt solution, but I swear never in my life have I felt so useless as when I’m leaning over the toilet seat, watching my sins being flushed down the drain.